What can ya do?

life is never as you expect. you think you've finally figured it out, until it takes a drastic turn. you sometimes want to give up, to just lock yourself in your room forever...feel sorry for yourself forever. but what is that going to do? it won't make you or anyone around you feel better...so why? you know that sick feeling in your gut? its kinda of like what happens right before you cry. it could be an angry feeling...it could be a heartbroken feeling...it could be a feeling of total defeat. So, when your feeling that gut feeling, stop and think. and just know...that sometimes crying isn't the answer to everything.

peaches.

people are like peaches, i have recently discovered.
you have to peel the peach and cut it in slices before eating.
the peach may not taste all that great...you may have to sugar coat it.
maybe you disagree with me...maybe you think peaches are all delicious, even without the sugar.
just like people...you have to work hard to get inside a person, to get to know the real them.
and once you know them, do you really like the person they turn out to be? will you tell them what you really think of them, or will you sugar coat it?
so let me ask you this...would you sugar coat the peach? or would you bear the nauseating taste? or maybe you would just throw it away, and grab a new one in hopes of finding a better tasting peach.
but let me tell you this:
a peach that could look ripe and sweet on the outside could be very sour and foul tasting on the inside. not all peaches are good peaches.

My Top 10 Ways to Have Fun (:

1. go to a fun party with the cast of your junior high play! (:
2. read a good book...not one that is too scary or too boring.
3. go for a walk in the sunshine (:
4. style your hair in a funny way, or do your make up dramatically.
5. call a friend...see what they're up to. maybe meet up with them and hang!
6. Pretend your a movie star, and put on a show for your wall.
7. go to the mall and shop (:
8. go on vacation somewhere you've never been before.
9. Go to Young Womens!
10. sing your heart out!

My comfort :)

you know how people have certain things that make them happy? like animals or sports cars? well my comfort is music. when i hear a good song, i feel like i can do anything. i feel a surge of strength kind of like Percy Jackson when he touches water. When i sing, i feel unstopable...like when everything else has gone wrong...i still have my voice and my ipod and my microphone to come to. they never leave me, or disappoint me. when i hit that high note in that song that i've practiced for what seems a lifetime...i can feel i can sing anything i want and never fail. i love the way i feel when i hear or sing the words to a meaningful song, so thats my comfort. whats yours?
muchlove,
Bodacious Dev.

video games...are they really what you think they are?!

TV can turn you into a log...you sit there and watch and watch, and then when your supposed to be doing something else, you feel so exhuasted even though you haven't been doing anything. same with video games, people who play video games have brains of mush. i'm a strong believer in not playing video games. they are lame, they're an excuse for guys not to confront their feelings. LAME right? yeah, but thats okay...some guys just don't have what it takes to be in a relationship. sorry guys, but its time to face the sad truth. of course, there are some exceptions, like my brother and cousins, they have what it takes to be in a relationship, they are just bored. hahaha.
muchlove,
bodacious Dev.

why, Why, WHY?

sometimes you miss people...its a natural thing. But i hate missing people who you know deep down don't miss you. it sucks. or like having feelings for someone without a logical reason of why. everywhere i turn i think of the same person...who never did anything that extraordinary. like the only question is WHY? what has he done to make me think of him any more than i should? he doesn't even deserve to be in my thoughts? so why is he? it makes me mad, of how i think of him and i know he isn't thinking of me...its just NOT fair. but life isn't fair, ya know?
muchlove,
Bodacious Dev.

"it's funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back,everything is different."

Have you ever wondered what the future will bring? i look back at me a year ago...i would never have expected the stuff i've gone through ya know? its crazy. like in a year from now, what will have happened to me? its just wierd to think about. things change so quickly but you just don't realize it...people change all the time, but sometimes you just don't want to accept it. sometimes you change, and you don't want to accept it.
muchlove,
Bodacious Dev.