Not like the movies.

Okay, so I'm off to a dance soon. Okay, this sounds pathetic but I'm kind of dreading it. I can see it now...all my cute and beautiful friends dancing with handsome guys, while i sit on the sidelines, watching and trying not to look as pathetic as i feel. I know, it's stupid. It's not like i don't like it...i love that my friends are so pretty, and that they get asked to dance. I just feel so inadequate to them...because they have the looks and well, i thought i was pretty...but i never get asked. Yeah, so what right? It's just a stupid dance that would be awkward anyways. That's what i always try to tell myself, and i always end up sad when it's over. Well, then why do i keep going to the dances? Ha, i have no idea. Maybe i'm just hoping that it will be different this time. That's all a girl like me has sometimes...hope.
Wow, I'm being dramatic aren't I? It's just so ridiculous, ya know? I get all dolled up, I go to the dance, and i end up staring at the perfect guy and the perfect girl sharing that perfect dance, and wish it were me. But i guess i'm not in a movie. This is real life.
"If it's not like the movies than that's how it should be."
However, on the bright side of things, i have amazing friends...i'd like to give a shout out to them. You guys are so incredibly beautiful, and always are there to support. Thanks so much for dealing with me and my pathetic-ness (: I love you guys...you know who ya are.
Muchlove,
Devyn. (:

I've moved on and I'm happy.

So, it's been about a year since i posted my last blog. There are a lot of things that have changed. I'm practically a new person. I like the person that i've become. I like that i've grown, and i've matured...and i can see things a little more clear now. I used to only care about a skinny, annoying kid who somehow stole my heart...but now things aren't like that. Now, I have goals...I have dreams. I don't like music all that much any more. I want to become a baker. I want to go to college, and eventually open my own bakery. I want a family. I want to marry a handsome man in the temple...and i want kids. I want a boy named Drew.
I desire different things now. Yet, i know in a year from now...things could be even more different. I get to start driving in June! I would never have even thought that the time would go by so fast...the next thing I know I'll be in college. I'll be studying hard. I'll be dating. I'll be struggling...I'll be getting my heart broken. I'll be dealing with a loss..or any other hard trials there are. But for now, I'll just be me...but i'll be growing and learning even more. And i'm excited. I'm ready. Change...it's always there. Yet, sometimes we just don't realize. I'm a new me since a year ago..I've moved on and i'm happy (:
muchlove,
Devyn. (:

Back to BLOGGIN' (;

Well, hello, I am back... So, things have changed alot since my last post. I'm in eighth grade now, and it's not exactly a tea party, but hey, i'm alive! So, recently i have realized something about life. It's very hard to see the good in everyone...sometimes you will look at someone and immediately think "I don't like them!" or, in more simple matters, "eww." Sometimes it's easier to judge people based on first impressions then to get to know the real person inside. Maybe they really are rotten, but everyone has something good to offer (: Recently, i have been involved in a musical production, and there is some people who i cannot stand. It seems to me that it is impossible to find something remotely good about them...like maybe when you first meet someone, they act assertive and grumpy, and they appear to not make an effort to get to know you...so you immediately think that they are rude, and not a good person. BUT, after many weeks of hard work and sweaty rehearsals...you find out that they are super duper fun and nice! Little pops! (: Others, though, may be harder to crack! I know i still think mean thoughts about some people, but i am trying to work on SEEING THE GOOD IN EVERYONE! maybe you should try it too! (: Keep readin', and I'll keep no bloggin' (: Muchlove, Bodacious Dev!

What can ya do?

life is never as you expect. you think you've finally figured it out, until it takes a drastic turn. you sometimes want to give up, to just lock yourself in your room forever...feel sorry for yourself forever. but what is that going to do? it won't make you or anyone around you feel better...so why? you know that sick feeling in your gut? its kinda of like what happens right before you cry. it could be an angry feeling...it could be a heartbroken feeling...it could be a feeling of total defeat. So, when your feeling that gut feeling, stop and think. and just know...that sometimes crying isn't the answer to everything.

peaches.

people are like peaches, i have recently discovered.
you have to peel the peach and cut it in slices before eating.
the peach may not taste all that great...you may have to sugar coat it.
maybe you disagree with me...maybe you think peaches are all delicious, even without the sugar.
just like people...you have to work hard to get inside a person, to get to know the real them.
and once you know them, do you really like the person they turn out to be? will you tell them what you really think of them, or will you sugar coat it?
so let me ask you this...would you sugar coat the peach? or would you bear the nauseating taste? or maybe you would just throw it away, and grab a new one in hopes of finding a better tasting peach.
but let me tell you this:
a peach that could look ripe and sweet on the outside could be very sour and foul tasting on the inside. not all peaches are good peaches.

My Top 10 Ways to Have Fun (:

1. go to a fun party with the cast of your junior high play! (:
2. read a good book...not one that is too scary or too boring.
3. go for a walk in the sunshine (:
4. style your hair in a funny way, or do your make up dramatically.
5. call a friend...see what they're up to. maybe meet up with them and hang!
6. Pretend your a movie star, and put on a show for your wall.
7. go to the mall and shop (:
8. go on vacation somewhere you've never been before.
9. Go to Young Womens!
10. sing your heart out!

My comfort :)

you know how people have certain things that make them happy? like animals or sports cars? well my comfort is music. when i hear a good song, i feel like i can do anything. i feel a surge of strength kind of like Percy Jackson when he touches water. When i sing, i feel unstopable...like when everything else has gone wrong...i still have my voice and my ipod and my microphone to come to. they never leave me, or disappoint me. when i hit that high note in that song that i've practiced for what seems a lifetime...i can feel i can sing anything i want and never fail. i love the way i feel when i hear or sing the words to a meaningful song, so thats my comfort. whats yours?
muchlove,
Bodacious Dev.